andrew means...

this year's camp, be bold!, is amazingly my type of camp.

according to the Biblical meaning of the name "andrew", i am supposed to be courageous. and truthfully, i'm anything but courageous. and above all my fears, i am afraid of making mistakes. the main reason of it is because i'm a perfectionist. (i have other fears too, but i don't think i should make the list now...)

well, truthfully, i have a desire in my heart that i cannot really say right now (again, fear). i have been quite confused on what to do. i have hinted several people about my issue. some said that i should do according to what my heart tells me. others told me that i should follow the social and moral conduct (it's complicated). and i just don't know what to do. i'm not courageous enough to follow my heart, unfortunately.

today's entry doesn't seem to be one good one, mostly because i don't have a solid example which i have experienced myself. but i still have an intention on writing this.

everyone has fears. the person whose name means courage has so much fear. king david has fears of the bears and lions, and - of course, goliath. we have our own goliaths too. but one thing is for sure, we have his God too - the God of abraham, the God who died on the cross for all our sins. and praise the Lord for that! david defeated his goliaths in His name. and so, let's defeat ours with His name - the name that is above every name - JESUS!

i guess my message is this: be bold with your fears. be bold with what the desire you have! i know i haven't. but i'm learning. and i know that one day i'll take that step into the land where the Holy Spirit stands. this desire will (and shall) still burn!

and until that day, i will build on my courage. and this is only done for one thing: to let the glory of God shine!

in the grace of God,
andrew