I Told My Heart To Open!

This year's camp was a big one for me. I had a new experience about leadership, about who I am, about who others are to me, about what God wants of me. Most of all, I learnt how prayers can change so many things. Throughout the year this year so far, I feel that I've learnt so much about prayers. Last year when I accepted Christ, I remember myself being so embarrassed praying with anyone else. I remember myself being quiet, absolutely quiet in prayer meetings. I remember I was the coward person when I was back in primary school. Nothing has changed.

That was when I learnt that prayers is the only way to change. Patricia Raybon doesn't have to write her whole book: the title says it all, "I Told The Mountains To Move". She did write the book though. In it, she said that she wanted to learn to pray so that things change. I believe her because I want things to change.

The Word of God told us that the earnest prayers of a righteous man have powerful results. I want to have that kind of results - those that can move mountains. As I prepare myself for the Sydney trip I'm having tomorrow for a Christian seminar, I told myself to open up my heart. However, it's more difficult to tell yourself to do something, I have learnt.

I mentioned something about this year's camp because I realized then that prayers come from me, from my longing. It's my hunger to talk to God. Just imagine yourself in the dark. Complete dark. I believe you'd shout something like, "Is anyone there?" I guess it's our instinct to just want to be around somebody. It's our longing to talk to someone whenever we are lost. It seems that words can dissolve fear.

For me, that fear disappears the first time I talked with God. And I invited God into my house that He has created for me: my heart. I want Him to live in me forever. That way, no matter how dark a valley I have to walk through, I know that Jesus will be with me, that I can talk to Him whenever I want, whenever I feel scared.

So, I told my heart to open. And that's what I love to pray for. Jesus told us to ask and keep on asking and we will receive. I long for my heart to be opened to a grace so abundant. That's why I would love to pray a simple prayer now:

"Lord Jesus, open up my heart. Open up my heart so wide that it can capture all of Your grace. Live in me. Open the eyes of my heart, so I could see You, so I could understand Your glory. Fill me when I'm empty and let Your Spirit overflow out of me. Open my ears and let me listen to Your voice calling out to me. Open up my eats so wide that I could even hear the rocks speaking about Your grace. Deepen my heart again. And let all of these continue the next day. You said Your grace is new every morning, and I just want to remember and contain all of them. Let me be used for Your glory forever and ever. All praises to You alone, Jesus. Amen."

Like a desperate person to see the beautiful blossom of a flower, I command the flower of my heart to blossom, so I could see the beautiful Spirit that dwells inside.

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
Open the eyes of my heart
I want to see You
I want to see You