"Sometimes you have to speak victory during the test."
Seeing that it's exam period now, I can't help thinking why I want to renew the blog today. I guess I could just start by saying that God is a good God. He knows what I need before I actually ask Him. Last night, I was blogging and realized that I was afraid of my exam. So I had a quote from a song titled, "Let Go". I tried to let go everything I have in prayer. But when the exam ended, my spirit was crushed, and I began to forget what it means to "let go". I was sulking in the disappointment of the exam throughout the afternoon and evening today, and so, I thought of forgetting my sorrows in an evening nap.
When I woke up, I went to my blog, and read about the post I typed last night. It hit me. The post just hits me. I didn't know what to say, but to just give God this sorrows in prayer.
My point? Quite a few. Firstly, sometimes you just do something without realizing an absolute need to do it - like writing a blog post during a time when I'm supposed to be studying. I thought it's just wasting my time. But from inside of me, a desire just appeared that make me write that "unnecessary" post. But as the Word of God said, no things which you are doing for the Kingdom of God shall be put to waste. (Or something like that. I learnt this from Max Lucado...) And I realized it's true. In fact, the post became necessary to me today to remind myself of the meaning of "let go". See, the work of your hands cannot be understood even by yourself. The only thing we can do is trust in God that everything we do for Him shall never be put to waste.
Secondly, I realized that things we read can mean different things to us at different times. Like that blog post. It seems unnecessary to me last night, but it is crucial for me to build my spirit up today. I guess that's another thing about the Bible. It is full of grace. Many times, we glanced through chapters after chapters, finding rhema. But when you get right down to it, reading the Bible is not enough. You have to experience the Word of God. It's like the blog post. When you experience the Word of God, it just hits you. That's when you realized the grace of God. That's when you feel the flow of Holy Spirit. So, live life and persist in reading the Bible. Seek rhema not only in the Word, but let the Word speak to you in your real life.
Which brings me to "singing a new song". When taken literally, it means that every week we would have to learn 5 new songs in celebration service. But I guess there's more to "singing a new song". I guess it means singing with a new attitude. Sometimes when you listen to a song, it's like the blog post, or a story in the Bible - it doesn't hit you. But praising God is not really an experience, until that song really mean something to you. I guess that's why you repeat praises. You sing until your spirit is convinced of the message in the song. While doing that, your spirit will respond differently to the songs you are singing. And I realized that these responses are the singing of the new songs. We sing according to the heart desire, according to what we are feeling. We express it to God. Every day's a different day. And hence, every day has a different meaning, a different song to sing. We should just sing every day, repeat it if you need to, until you are convinced you are living a song!
I guess that's all for now. I might not make perfect sense in the post, or perhaps I could be wrong about some things. But hey, I'm still learning too. So, please comment on them... Thanks!
in the Grace of Christ,
andrew
